Love You Forever

Benson is now ten weeks and can hold his head up more and more. He also smiles a lot more and loves to coo at one of the walls in our bedroom. All the hard work of caring for him definitely pays off when he smiles at me.

While I was pregnant with Benson, I had several friends and relatives tell me that when they had their babies, they just felt so much love and never realized how much you could love one person until they had their children. They retold their stories of the first time they held their newborn baby and how emotionally it was because their hearts were full for this child and just love them so much.

I was excited to have this feeling and when Scott put Benson in my arms for the first time, it was not the thought that I had and the only feeling I felt was nervessness. Secretly I felt like a bad mother but never told anyone of this disappointment.

I've been trying to get a night schedule down for Benson and part of the routine I'd like for him to have is reading stories to him before bed. Last week I read to him "Love you forever" and after the second page of the story, my heart started to fill and i began to cry when it read

"I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
as long as I'm living
my baby you'll be"

I finally know what so many of these women were telling me. I'm so glad that we have Benson and he has brought so much happiness in our lives

Book Club

So my sister in law suggested I read Mr.Darcy's Diary since I was looking for a good read...and i loved it! its a diary format of Mr.Darcy's side of the story, I highly recommend it if you are a Jane Austin fan

What I like about Salt Lake....

I think I can get used to living in a city because all of this is within a mile of our condo....


Farmers Market Saturday mornings




The Gateway Shopping Center



Salt Lake Library



Memory Grove walking trails

short or long?

So i have been debating whether or not I should give up growing my hair out and just cut it...

or be brave and try to grow it out long one last time.......

Benson's Birth

so I realize that i haven't updated this blog in quite some time, things have been very busy so this might be a long post, if you dont want to read it all, i totally understand! lets start back with the 4th of July weekend post that i've been meaning to post but never did :

(Warning: it talks about the delivery!)
This has been the best 4th of July I have ever had! Normally this holiday is a curse for me but my luck has finally changed! To help get us excited for the holiday we doubled up with our good friend the Campbells to go see the Wolverine movie in the dollar theater.

It was pretty cheesy and a little violent for my taste but overall I enjoyed it, especially the company since Joseph and Chelsie got Creamery Ice Cream for us afterwards- Sooo Yummy!
Saturday morning me and Chelsie dragged our husbands to the Provo 4th of July parade- which if anyone doesn't know, is one of the biggest events Provo does and people go crazy with trying to reserve spots along the route. We all thoroughly enjoyed the parade. Scott and Joseph's favorite part was the big army tanks. i'd have to say that I really liked the kilts and bag pipes and Chelise just loved all of it!
Afterward Scott and I made our way up to Salt Lake to celebrate the 4th with his mom and sister. We got the all American KFC dinner and watched Independence Day. To top it off we were able to get on the roof and watch the whole valley shoot off fireworks. We were able to see six different shows from across the valley. it was beautiful.
Sunday we stayed up in Salt Lake most the night and got home kinda late and went to bed around midnight and around 1215 i started having contractions, but they weren't close enough together to go in so i just hung around the house for another 2 hours till they were getting harder to push through. we got in the hospital around 2 and just watched me and the contractions for an hour to see if there were in changes- there wasn't any but the doctor ordered my a morphine shot. i dont know how people have kids without medicine!! because of the medicine both scott and i got a little bit of sleep from 3-6 but i still wasn't making any progress. the doctor ended up breaking my water which spend things up very fast- the nurse had me push for 40 minutes until the head was crowning to call the doctor, i told her i felt like he was just going to come out- she left the room for one minute to call him and then when she came out - everything went crazy cause he was coming.. the nurse told Scott to go in the hall and yell baby on the way.. the nurse actually ended up delivering him on my bed even before the doctor on the floor got there- it was really really fast... he just appeared! it was amazing and something so hard to describe- Scott couldn't stop smiling and was so proud to be a dad. Benson came around 130pm and weighed 6 pds 13 ozs and is 18.5 inches long. I still can't believe how little he is! especially with me and scott's gene's.. but he did come early and we love him so much "

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Tummy Tub?

A few weeks ago my mom called me to tell me she saw on the Today show a new type of baby bath tub that has come from Europe that is now beginning to get popular in the U.S. I tried to find it on line but she didn't know the name or how to describe it. Then tonight at dinner with our cousins, one of them brought it up, again, that he saw it on the Today Show. Luckly they found the site for me and I thought it was soo funny, especailly with the little babies in the tub, i just had to post about it. how funny is this!

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June is for waiting

There has been a lot of waiting going on the past few weeks, hence the lack of exciting posts. Waiting for 7 peaks to open (finally, it has!), waiting for this baby to come- I'm now at 37 weeks and feel like if he gets any bigger i'm going to pop, and waiting to hear back from jobs..

In a quick summary, Scott graduated in April and has been looking for a job, he got an interview in the same town as where my parents live in NC with a management training program with Enterprise rental car. He got another interview in D.C. with revolution cycle, which is a bike company whose clients include secret service, the president and other government officials.

Both interviews went very well, and seemed very interested in Scott. There are a lot of advantages and disadvantages to each one, which I won't go into because they are pretty lengthy. We're just waiting to hear back and applying for more jobs out East and in the area.

I did find a job where I can work from home, which is very exciting for us that I will be able to work and be at home with the baby.

We went to one of those classes that the hospital offers and even though it was very long (6 hours!) it was very helpful. I think we have most everything ready for the baby, at least the basics. I'm starting to get really excited for him to come and not to be pregnant anymore!