This semester is winding down and with that comes massive papers due. I'm taking a Genocide class with a professor that I have been avoiding the last two years due to rumors of her harshness towards grading and toughness. This semester I just couldn't avoid her. It's been an interesting class- depressing to say the least. she's requiring a 18 page paper due that I have been putting off all semester as well as a 10 page one from my other history class. This last week I finally had time to work on it and what did i do? anything but work on the paper. laundry, dishes, sleeping, other homework...you name it, I did it.
I think its been weighing down on me so much that the last two days have been a struggle ( well, that along with Scott finding a job, us preparing for the baby, Scott getting sick and everything else) and I just felt like I was in a rut that I could never get out of. The unexpected snow just put me farther and farther under my covers in the morning rather than getting out of them and I felt agitated all the time.
Well, today it changed. Finally. It was a mildly warmer day and we needed to go drop something off at a neighbors down the block. It was raining lightly but as we went for our walk, the smell of the rain and fresh grass seemed to calm me to the bone and silence all my uneasiness. It felt so good to walk in the rain and feel like everything was fresh again. All the grass seemed a vibrant green and enough flowers were out to give me hope that spring was really on its way. Our neighborhood was silent (something that rarely happens) and when the rain stopped...the sun peaked through the clouds for just enough time to feel like everything was perfect. at least for now.
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You are too cute! But I know how you feel. But...YOU'RE ALMOST DONE!! Then you get to take time off to be with your cute baby and then you get to student teach which is SO fun, and then you're really, really DONE! You can do it!!
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